I am the person with the smile on their face.
I am the person who always offers to make plate loads of food so that you're full and content.
I am the person who is full and can't eat a bite, but wants you to enjoy your food.
I am the person who watches you all enjoying yourself, whilst I'm chuckling.
I am the person who has a few pieces of lettuce and drinks water daily.
I am the person ready to go to the gym and work out with you.
I am the person who will push the furthest in my goal, and I will not stop.
I am the person who will not stop when I sweat.
I am the person who will slowly pack up their bag and walk to the shower.
I am the person who, with every step taken to the shower, looses their smile.
I am the person who enters the shower with a feeling of discontent.
I am the person who feels an argument brewing in their head.
I am the person who slowly drives home and slowly feels sadder with every mile.
I am the person who enters the doorway alone, with no one suspecting a thing.
I am the person who climbs the stairs and grabs the brown extension cord on the floor.
I am the person who turns on the light in the bath room and looks up in the mirror at myself.
I am the person who punches out the mirror and watches the blood poor from their hand.
I am the person who slowly bends over the toilet.
I am the person who bundles the cord and inches it ever so slowly down their throat.
I am the person who thrusts the cord back and forth, feeling all the pain.
I am the person who vomits the remnants of the nothing I've become.
I am the person who feels the pain and burning from the acid eating me inside out.
I am the person who doesn't get up until they feel thin.
I am the person who tells themselves they're a fat fucking pig.
I am the person who will push the furthest in their goal.
I am the person who can not stand him/herself.
I am the person with the most imperfections.
I am the failure.
I am the person who will take that cord one day, after slitting their wrist, and hang.
I am my ending.
I am me.
Someone please help me.
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